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It's two thirty and I'm still awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaake.
This school should pander to my needs and cancel my class tomorrow. Or it should snow like eight feet so that no one can get out of the dorms. I don't want to go to class tomorrow.
That's about all.
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What are you complaining about, it's 5:17 and I'm still awake. And it was 6 yesterday when I went to sleep. Dangit. I need to start working again. Not working is bad for my sleep. But it's good for my gaming... lol...
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Yeah, I did that the two nights before this.
Wanna know what's funny? That was two hours before I went to sleep. Insomnia rules my world, and I actually have to wake up in the mornings. It's sort of a miserable existence.
On another note..... THREE PAGES. What now. I think that's the farthest I've ever gotten in a journal.
And on another, even more random note, nagas are really nifty. I'd write with them, but they totally don't fit into any of my plotlines. I feel kind've like running up and down the hall singing nonsense syllables at the top of my lungs. <---------------- That's how you know sleep really is a necessary commodity.
And on yet ANOTHER note, yahoo messenger has eaten my soul. It's quite strange when you're talking to the same four people on one chatroom/messenger site, and talking to at least three of them at the same time on yahoo. It's like what, is one conversation not enough? I'm getting really good at carrying four conversations at once, though. That's got to be good for something.
I'm gonna have a whole symphony if I keep adding notes.
IT'S LIKE TEN DEGREES BELOW ZERO AND IT'S SUNNY. WTF IS UP WITH THAT.
[/end pointless journal entry]
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(dies giggling) I'm just addicted to myminicity... mmmmmm.... and... not nearly sleeping right... that didn't come out right. See, I'm getting enough sleep, I'm just dead because it's natural to be tired when it's dark so I'm practically waking up when it's getting dark... dangit, I need to work nightshifts... I got up at like four today... x_x
Actually, no, I just need to stop doing this and start doing my game time in the mooooooooooorning.
Or.
You know.
Get a JOB.
I'm assuming you don't mean Celsius because that's not that cold. I hate to break it to you but sunny days in winter are generally COLDER... yeah.
I have felt like that before. We obviously need more sleep. And I've chatted with Jandalf on two YIM windows and Skype at the same time. LOL. But that's it for scary chat arranging. I tend to try avoid multi-chatting at alll costs.
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Oh no. It's farenheit. And that's negative nine WITHOUT the wind chill. Good times.
Yeah, I understand the weird time thingie. I basically decided that mentally I'm in Japan. Or vampiric. One night I went to bed at six thirty, just as the sun was coming up, and woke up at five after it had gone down. That was a little bit sad. I was going to attempt to train myself to sleep at night again, since I have early classes this semester, but I'm basically failing at that. The earliest I've managed so far is two thirty. Miraculously I've only missed one class, and that's totally winning over last semester where I missed like.... eight, and then it was even worse because those classes were at ELEVEN.
I always know I should probably be going to sleep when I start giving one word answers to everything, and half of those one words are "heh." That and I start spelling words backward. It's really quite funny.
The worst thing about my bad sleep habits is that my roommate and I are completely opposite. Most of the time, she's in bed by like.... ten or eleven o'clock. That's about when I really start waking up. Which means that I have to shut my lights off, so I sit in the dark in my chair staring at my incredibly bright computer screen, and give myself headaches. Last night, I didn't fall asleep until four or five or something like that, and Sarah all sits up in bed, says "Oh my God," and goes back to sleep. It was the funniest thing ever. It was also funnier because I hadn't slept since the four hours of sleep that I got the night before. Everything is funnier if you've only slept four hours of of thirty.
The only problem with multiple-window chatting is when you confuse the windows, or click on the wrong one. Especially when you're talking with one person about another person that you're talking to in another window. That can cause issues. It's also kinda funny when the person that you're talking to ALWAYS screws up and says stuff in the wrong window, and then they panic... one of my friends does that so often. I love him dearly, but he should probably stick to one window. Otherwise things just get messy.
I have to figure out how to hook up my microphone to my computer. Not really for voice chatting because that is terrifying.... but I have to record radio spots, and the stupid little bugger just does not want to work. Gaaah. Oh well. If I hooked that up I could totally do YouTube video journaling. Which would also be hysterical. I'd probably never do it, but it's sort've funny to think about.
The library is really, really boring on Thursday nights. There's one person here, which means we can't close, and he's not showing any signs of wanting to leave. If we're stuck here until ten because one person doesn't want to go back to his dorm, I'm going to be a very sad person.
That's about all. Except that all of the little post-it note origami thingers sitting on the counter in here are cracking me up. Obviously the person who worked before me didn't have a very exciting evening, either.
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This is a pointless post.
OKAY I HAVE TO RANT ABOUT BLEACH FOR TWO MINUTES.
Uhm. Never watch Bleach dubbed in English. THEY GAYIFIED MY TOUSHIROU. Okay. I mean, seriously.
Uhm. I could also rant about the fact that they aren't putting out the manga anywhere near fast enough, but I won't because that would just be pointless. But there's so a reason why I don't watch anime in English.
Dude, even GIN's voice is gay.
Well, okay. I'm pretty sure Gin is always gay. And insane. But whatever. Anime is so much better when it's in Japanese. Soooo much better. Hitsugaya should not be that gay.
This was actually a good episode, too. Until the Americans gayified it... Japanese just doesn't translate into English attractively. "Spiritual Pressure" is such a gay way of putting things. Reiatsu is just so much more... poetic. And since it's pretty obvious what they're talking anyway, it's just annoying.
Holy geez. Even Ichigo has a gay voice. Okay. This is almost funny now.
None of this is going to make any sense, since I don't think anyone on here even watches Bleach. But holy funny. Poor Ichigo. AAAAAAHHHHHH. WTF DID THEY DO TO URAHARA? Oh man. That's so much worse than Hitsugaya. Granted... Urahara is just kinda weird. But still. That level of gayness is totally uncalled for.
Uhm. I just felt like I needed to rant.
Half an hour of Bleach seems sooooo much longer when it's in English.
Wow. Byakuya is such a pain in this cycle. I mean, he's always a brat. But wow. He's practically the devil.
Why did they not finish describing the random plotline that was in there between Rangiku and Gin? I guess there wasn't that much of a chance to, since Gin went flyin' off into the sky with Aizen. Eh. Yeah, this isn't going to make any sense. What a creeper.
Man, poor Hitsugaya. Okay, so he doesn't have the best Japanese voice actor. But the English one just does the weirdest things.
Ack. And so does Renji's. Whooooaah. Like, a lot. Lol. Something ominous. Renji is so not ominous. That voice so does not fit. Waaaay too high. Maybe not too high. The tone is too light. Ichigo swears a lot for being fifteen. Zabimaru's bankai is so gay. Poor Renji.
Awwwww, Kaien flashbacks. Sad. This episode is so full of epicness. Except for the fact that the ending for this cycle is really, really... well, gay. Bleach is a whole lot of gay, really. Oh well.
I think I'm going to be done, now.
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Okay. This is a totally bogus take on the whole shuffle thing. And it cracked me up in theory, so I had to try it. And I didn't want to let anyone who I generally talk to at three in the morning that I was online, but I wasn't ready to go to sleep yet. So, uh, yay.
Rules: Go to the Wikipedia home page and click 'random article' on the left menu. The first result is your band's name. Click random article again, this is your first album's name.
Click random article 15 more times, these are the tracks on your album.
Band Name: T-64 ((that's right. A Soviet battle-tank. That's kind of owning.))
First Album: Pareiorhaphis ((Uhm. That's a catfish. Yes. But a nifty word, anyhow...))
Tracks --
1: Rolls-Royce Falcon
2: Aston Martin DBR3
3: Mask (god) ((lol Dungeons and Dragons, ftw))
4: Wednesbury (UK Parliament constituency)
5: Transpersonal Business Studies
6: Arrecife ((that'd be a city in the Canary Islands...))
7: Keith Greene ((Uhm, lawl. This is actually a Fomula-1 race car driver... but, uh, yeah. Keith Green. You should look up Keith Green, if you don't know who he is.))
8: List of Artisan Entertainment video releases ((I sense a very deep and exciting song, there...))
9: Battle of wtf? Point ((.....))
10: Oborishte, Sofia
11: Tragic Daydreams ((This is someone else's album. Favorite track from that album? Spastic Annie.))
12: Jamba Juice
13: Utilitarianism
14: River ((another album name...))
15: Serre Conjecture ((Number theory))
And, because I'm not quite tired ENOUGH... T-64'S GREATLY ANTICIPATED SECOND ALBUM!!! IN WHICH THEY EXPERIMENT GREATLY WITH SYNTHESIZERS AND A NEW AND IMPROVED VOCAL RHYTHM SECTION.
Album Name: Haughley Experiment ((sounds interesting until you find out it was centered around organic farming.....))
Tracks --
1: Charles Wells Russell ((this could very well be a nice political piece. Charles Wells Russell was a bugger of a confederate. Apparently))
2: Colleen Shannon ((Uhm. She was Playmate of the month in January of 2004. In case you were wondering))
3: Peronospora dianthicola ((that'd be a plant pathogen))
4: Silk Stockings
5: HMS Gloucester (D96)
6: Swimming at the 1980 Summer Olympics ((This was a life changing time for the members of T-64.... except that none of them were... born..... yet....))
7: Atheist
8: Barnacle (Half-Life) ((video games have also touched the band deeply.... but apparently something about this particular Half-Life alien has sufficiently scarred at least one or more member.))
9: Kazimierz Karabasz
10: Jungshahi
11: Andrew Stewart ((Yay... British people...))
12: Nedap ((apparently they were drunk during the production of this song...))
12: Precapillary Sphincter
13: FCG ((we may never know what this means...))
14: Gotor ((the song's writing initially meant to type "Trogdor," but he was probably a bit... wonky.... so he got an african province, instead.))
15: Courtroom Sketch
And with that, I bid you good day.
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This is how you know you obviously procrastinate WAY TOO MUCH.
Alright. So for my college algebra class you do your homework online. And that's what the window is called. "Do homework." And then your name after that yada yada. But the first time I saw it I'd had the window open forever and totally forgot that it was there, and was all "holy crap, it knows!!!"
Yes. That's my dramatic story for the day.
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Ladada... I should be driving to get my prescriptions filled, but I don't really feel like going outside. It's cold.
VIDEO GAME SURVEYS FTW
This isn't going to be very exciting. Btw.
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Genres/firsts.
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1.What was the first video game you have ever played?
Mario Bros. Like, the one for the NES. Yeah, that's right.
2.What was your first console?
Nintendo Entertainment System
3.Have you ever visited a video game arcade?
Yep. Almost every ministry team road trip ever...
4.What was your first handheld?
Not a big handheld fan...
5.What was the first game you've beaten/cleared completely?
I never finish games. Ehm.... lessee. Soul Caliber 2.
6.Games based off of real sports: Yay or Nay?
FIFA Street is fun. That's about it.
7.Online games: Yay or nay?
Nope. I get bored waaay too easily.
8.Do you play any Massively Multiplayer Online RPG games? (MMORPGs?)
No. But WoW is almost worth it, just for the bad jokes. No lie.
9.Do you play any virtual pet games? (Neopets, Teripets, Aftermathzone, etc.)
I killed my Neopet. Probably because I named him something really long and incomprehensible. And never fed him.
10. Puzzle games and Strategy games: Yay or Nay?
Meh. Tetris...
11. Do you play any RPGs?
Yes. Doesn't mean I actually finish them, though.
12. Do you play any Platformer games?
Mario, a bit. They're just so happy.
13. What was the first game/console/handheld of yours that stopped working?
Uhm.... a couple of our NES games were wonky. And the one controller that you had to step on to get the B button to work....
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Characters/Plot
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14. Do you actually care if a game has a plot or do you just play games for the gameplay?
I like plot sometimes.... but every now and again I just like to smack things. For the entertainment value.
15. Name a few video game characters that are your favourites.
Wow, this is hard...
Soren and Rhys, from the Fire Emblems... Link, because he's just so dang cute... and Kilik from Soul Caliber. Dude fights with a big pink stick. There's nothing better than that.
16. Name a few series that are your favorites
Legend of Zelda, Fire Emblem, Final Fantasy (for the plot, I've hardly played them), Soul Caliber
17. Has a video game ever made you cry?
Pretty mad.... don't think I've ever actually cried...
18. Has a video game character annoyed you so much that you wanted him removed from the game? If so, name the character.
Navi. Freaking faerie.
19. Do you "pair" or "ship" characters up with one another? (make/create/write romance involving them)
Not on purpose.
20. Do you write video game fanfiction?
I've thought of some, but never actually physically written any.
21. Do you draw video game fanart?
I tend to steer away from fanart as much as possible.
22. Do you come up with theories on how a character came to be/what he or she would do in a situation/why he or she is moody/etc.
Oh gosh. Soren. What a hillarious character. I mean, not really, but just all of the implied plot stuff that's in there.
23. Are you a "fanboy" or "fangirl" of any character?
I fangirl Rhys. Totally. My brother kills him on purpose, now.
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Boss Battles/Villains
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24. Hardest Boss Battle
Well, since I rarely actually finish games.... heh.... okay, this is funny. The one I remember being the most terrifying boss battle ever was Ghoma, from Ocarina of Time. The second time I played that game it was retarded, but the first time it was my friend and I, and we'd like pass the controller back and forth between us, and I have no idea how we survived. It was pretty amazing.
25. Most Frustrating Boss Battle
Ashnard, Path of Radiance. Mostly because it gets a bit dull. Ike hits him, he hits Ike, He hits Ike, Ike hits him, we heal Ike because he's about to die, then we do that all over again. And it just takes so freaking long. Unless Ike has whatever the heck that thinger that lets him deal double damage or whatever when he's at half life, but yeah...
26. Most Rewarding Boss Battle
Uhm.... beating Marth with Yoshi in Super Smash Brothers. That was all kinds of hell.
27. Funnest Boss Battle
Owning ANYONE with Soren. I freaking love Soren.
28. Most Boring Boss Battle
Ehh, most of the Path of Radiance bosses aren't that exciting, unless you do something stupid. Or you own them with Soren.
29. Boss Battle that dragged out for a long, long time
Ashnard on Hard. Run screaming like a little girl, Ike....
30. Boss Battle with the coolest music
Eh.... I don't remember....
31. Most Surprising Boss Battle
That one Ashnard battle where I'd equipped whatever the heck it was on Ike for the first time, and killed him in like.... two hits. That was pretty surprising, since it normally takes half an hour to kill him....
32. What's your all time favorite villain?
The General Lady in Path of Radiance. Petrine.
33. What's your all time least favorite villain?
Tanas. CREEPER.
34. Do you ever feel sorry for the villains?
Sometimes.
35. Are there any villains that seem like they should be playing for the good guys, but aren't?
Zelgius, in the second (or third or whatever) Fire Emblem. That poor guy just couldn't catch a break. Except I guess technically he was a good guy... but he was a bad guy..... okay, I totally didn't understand what was going on there. He was a good bad guy, and he was MAJOR SPOILER IF YOU CARE the Black Knight.... so I don't really know.
36. Most malicious villain
Ashnard.
37. Most suprising villain
Zelgius. Holy hell wtf the Black Knight!?!
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Favorites
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39.What's your favorite 3D game? (PS1/N64 generation)
Ehh... prolly Tekken.
40.What's your favorite arcade game?
Tekken
41.What's your favorite next-gen game? (Gamecube/PS2/X-Box)
Soul Caliber 2
42.Sequels/long series: Yay or nay?
Fo sho
43.What's your favourite Online Game?
Ehm. Flyff was entertaining for like... seven minutes.....
44.What's your favourite console?
Gamecube. Only because I like the controller better than other ones....
45.What's your favourite handheld?
The PSP is entertaining.
46.Have you ever got yourself involved in a "console war"? (arguing that a console is better than another console)
Nope. Athough, I may have mentioned that Sony's decisions involving the PS3 were, for the most part, retarded.
47.Have you ever defended a character/game/console you liked in an argument? Which one?
Characters for sure. Not so much consoles.
48.Name a game that you like but everyone else seems to hate.
Eh.... beats me. Rockband.
49.Name a character that you like but everyone else seems to hate.
Eh.... beats me.
50.Name a game that you hate but everyone else seems to like
Halo. That's mostly just because I suck at it.
51.Name a character that you hate but everyone else seems to love.
Hmm. Yeah, I have no clue. I don't really hate any particular characters....
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Miscellaneous
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52.Have you ever stopped before you finished a game because it was too frustrating to go on?
Heh. I am the master of starting RPGs and never finishing them. And I mean like... all of them. I don't get frustrated, exactly. Just distracted.
53.Will you stop at NOTHING to get 100% in a video game?
Yeah, no. Hyperactive. No patience.
54.Have you ever injured yourself at a video game? (Space Invader wrist and Mario Party 1 blister victims may answer yes)
Guitar Hero. Totally fell off a chair because I practically have to lie down to play that stupid game and slid out of it. It's addictive, though.
55.Has a horror/survival genre video game scared you to the point that you refused to finish the game? Did you get nightmares from said game?
Doom 3. And I was only watching someone play it. Yeeeeaaaaah.
56.Have you ever thrown a controller/disc/cartridge in a fit of frustration?
I threw my controller at my brother once. I think we were playing SSB. And he was being a dork.
57.Do you need to blow/clean certain games to get them to play?
A couple N64 games.
58.Have you ever played a game for so long that you missed sleep over it?
Guitar Hero 2. I think I played for seven hours. And yet I don't think I've gotten much better.....
59.Were you ever involved in the Pokemon craze?
Nope. Missed the train on that one...
60.Last but not least: Do you picture yourself playing video games 10, 20, or 30 years from now?
Probably. I'm holding out for Virtual Reality. Just drop me in there, and I can run around like an idiot. Heck yes.
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Uhm. It seems like there's something that I should actually be doing, but I'm not, and I can't even remember what it is. So I'm gonna stick a survey in here, because I'm lame like that. Whee.
1. I've come to realize that when I talk: people take me way too seriously.
3. I've come to realize that, when I love someone: I make stupid mistakes and hurt people. Generally because I didn't want to hurt them in tthe first place.
4. I've come to realize that I need: more sleep.
5. I've come to realize that I've lost: a good majority of my mind.
6. I've come to realize that I dislike it when: people assume that the best thing for them is automatically the best thing for you, as well, and use that assumption as an opportunity to preach at you.
8. I've come to realize that money: is quite helpful for doing laundry.
9. I've come to realize that people: aren't perfect. Like... I defninitely knew that before. But it's really come into focus, lately.
10. I've come to realize that I'll always be: lame. Heh. But I'm perfectly fine with that.
11. I've come to realize that I have a celebrity crush on: ..... uh, no one. I have come to realize no such thing.
12 I've come to realize the last time i cried: it was stupid, and I feel incredibly bad for the poor Sears guy who had to listen to me have a panic attack.
13. I've come to realize that my cell phone is: in my pocket. Why the hell I'm realizing things about my cell phone, I have no idea.
14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning: it really IS possible to take a shower in seven minutes.
15. I've come to realize that before I went to sleep last night: I was, uh, night monitoring. So I wasn't really realizing much, at all.
16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about: AFI. Because that's what I'm listening to. And this Blatz song, which isn't altogether an appropriate song, but has some incredibly compelling lyrics.
17. I've come to realize that babies: uh..... wtf is this about?
18. I've come to realize that when I get on Myspace: it's generally because I don't feel like doing what I should actually be doing.
19. I've come to realize that today I will be: filling out lame surveys for no reason and listening to lame bands that really aren't that talented....
20. I've come to realize that tonight I will: probably not sleep. Because I was night monitoring last night, and didn't get a chance to talk to particular people who I need to stay in touch with. I haven't been talking to them as much as I should.
21. I've come to realize that tomorrow will: be long. Wednesdays always are.
22. I've come to realize that I really want to: sleep. And stop listening to AFI.
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Yeah.
My answer there would be different. It would be 'I need a new job'. OOOPS.
Listen to Tripmeter instead! TRIPMETER! (flail)
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lolersauce. DO YOU WANT MY JOB?!?!!!!1
YOU SHOULD ALL GO READ VIRGINIA WOOLF, BECAUSE SHE'S COOL AND YOU JUST SHOULD.
That is all. Good day.
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Okay. So this is what you get when I'm depressed and sort've angry and decide to blog. I actually write thought cohesively when I'm upset. Wish it worked when I was happy, too.
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I'd really, really like to know why it is that people feel like I'm supposed to be the last person to know things. That's how it's always been. I never know what's going on until like... two hours before we're supposed to be leaving the house for a week, or (and this has happened) after whatever I was supposed to do.
I thought maybe that'd get better once I left home? But I guess I'm invisible enough that all of my friends... feel like they have to do the same thing. The thing about that is..... they always tell me when things have gone wrong. After the fact. Tasia, fix this. They don't say that. But it's definitely implied. I end up fixing a lot of things that have nothing to do with me. I'm.... just tired. I'm so tired, right now, I don't know what to do. There's so much stuff that I have to do, and then people do this. I'm having so much trouble focusing on the things I really, really need to be focusing on, because so much of my attention is locked up trying to fix other people's problems. I don't have time to do the things that I want to do, much less the things that I need to do, because all of my time is devoted to other people.
I guess I'm selfish. I don't know.
But if someone stops you from logging off because they need to talk to you so much that it can't wait a day, you'd expect them to maybe explain themselves, right? Yeah, I was going to go to bed early, because I'm actually really depressed and overwhelmed right now because I don't know what I'm doing academically, and my grades aren't good, and I'm basically going to fail out of at least two of my classes if I don't get my act together right freaking now... so I was going to go try to sleep, because tomorrow's a new day, and I'm going to start over. But you need to talk to me. You need to talk to me because I suppose you just need someone to talk to to get rid of all of whatever it is you're feeling, and I just happen to be someone who's going to listen, because I guess that's the least I can do for someone. But I guess it's also okay to decide, after I've already prepared myself mentally to be awake and be there when I guess you might have needed me, to leave because you can't handle it. Or maybe you think it's to spare me. Whatever. Like it's honestly going to help me right now to have to worry about you. And yeah, I'll worry. Because that's what I do, and if you tell me you're freaking out, I'm freaking going to worry.
I hate blogging. I don't know how this is supposed to help anything. Now I've got a headache, and it's got absolutely nothing to do with errant ideas.
I just don't want to, anymore. To anything. I don't want to write. What I write sort've hurts. I don't really want to learn. I'm not retaining it, anyway. I just want to curl up and sleep for a century. I can't even do that, because I sleep for five hours and then I'm awake. I just want to drop everything and go away for a while. I don't want to listen to people's problems, anymore. I know you have problems. Everyone has problems. I don't want to listen to people asking me about my problems, and I don't really want to talk about them. I know I have problems. I'm dealing with them, thanks.
This is so freaking emo.
Someone shoot me. Right now. Before I write anymore of this freaking drivel. It doesn't mean anything, anyway. Just a bunch of cyber-words, cyber-emotions. Just... ah. I just want to bash my head against the wall behind me. As hard as I can. I can't even. My chair back is in the way.
Oh well. Life, I guess.
I have to write a paper tomorrow. Because I have to talk to my professor about it before it's actually due, so that I don't fail.
I don't want to fail. That's the only class I'm doing well in.
God, let me figure it out. Help me find inspiration. I'm so out, right now.
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| Quote: | | Someone shoot me. Right now. Before I write anymore of this freaking drivel. It doesn't mean anything, anyway. |
No.
It means something.
(Is it really safe to blog where someone will reply?)
I don't even know you.
But I'd miss you if you were gone.
I haven't been sleeping lately. I know why. I know damn well what keeps me up. What the hell is with me? I don't bloody know, someone make it go away.
But I am sleeping.
Sleeping 7-5. I used to work those hours! But my body still forces me to sleep for 10 hours unless I have a purpose.
I don't.
Not right now.
Trying to get back into writing, trying to remind myself I set a deadline to finish my Nano, and failing miserably...
TRYING to write a short story for OnSpec... well, hey, I got a page and a half last night...
Trying... maybe we're all looking for inspiration in the wrong places...
Don't you just wish we weren't self-critics?
I'm sorry. About whatever happened. I hope it's all right. Honestly, I miss you blogging. I love reading your blog posts. If it was a published chick-lit novel in your ranting voice with your quizzes and stuff, with a semi-cohesive plot running through, some sort of 'self discovery!' thing I'd so read it, I've never seen a novel based on blogging before and THAT'S ACTUALLY AN INTERESTING IDEA SOMEONE DO IT.
Thx.
Hey, if we write when we emo blog we just gotta make our emo blogging pay off, ahahaha.
I'd invite you to try ScriptFrenzy with me this year, if you want, but eh.
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Aha! Now I know why I've been having writing issues. I should be writing chick-lit. First book? "Going Nowhere, Emo Style."
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lol, no. LIVE LIFE DANGEROUSLY.
Heaven would be being able to sit down, completely content with life, and hammer out an entire story line without having to sit there and tear my hair out because my grammar is funky, or I THINK my grammar is funky. That would pretty much be heaven.
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But is it satisfying to blog knowing no one will read it? Oh, but so much of my mind wants to start obsessively emailing my pastor because he never replies to email, seemingly... it's work related so he gets a ton... LOL... blog on the edge.
Of course, Going Nowhere would need a sequel: Going Somewhere Way Too Fast and then another sequel: Over the Cliff.
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For some reason, yeah.... because it's nice to see that sometimes I think coherently even when I'm angry and ranting.
OOOOOOOOKAY.
Quiz.
Body: This is called “FIRST REACTIONS QUIZ”.
You have to type the 1st thing that comes to mind whenever you hear these things. You can’t think and go back and change your answers.
TIP: erase all of the other persons answers first..that way u can think in blank
Here we go
1. Beer: smells quite nasty.
2. McDonalds: gave me food poisoning the last time I ate it?
3. Relationships: confuse the hell out of me, and distract me from life.
4. Purple: Ren. Not changing the last person's answer, because it makes me think of the same person.
5. Power Rangers: That kid... Tanner. First crush ever. We played power rangers and he saved me from the sprinkler. Instant love.
6. Weed: Alex. My druggie. Uh huh.
7. Steroids: artificiality. And wellness. Thank you for making me think of wellness, btw.
8. Cartoons: and becoming even more lame. I mean seriously. Animation is so slack, nowadays.
9. The President: Is going away, and there's a line of liars and freaks waiting for his position. Yeah, they'll make changes, but we're on a fast track down the road the Romans took....
10. Tupperware: pbbbbtttttth. Still good. lawl. Uhm. That was Aladdin.
11. Florida: Humidity. And yuck.
12. Santa Clause: KIDNAP THE SANDY CLAWS
13. Halloween: The black widow? I think Kris dressed up as that one year... dunno why that'd come first.
14. Alice: Someone's cosplay...
16: Myspace: steals your soul. Tom is Satan.
17. Clowns: Should... not exist.
18. Marriage!!: Is sort've a forgotten art...
9. Paris: Hilton.
20. Redheads: Carl. and Carl the cat. They're sort've synonymous, 'cept one of them is a person.
21. Blondes: My brother's girlfriend. I love her. but boy is she...
22. Pass: I have to drive over a couple. In the snow
23. One night stands: always make me think of bedside tables?
24. Donald Trump: The hair. Holy good my lord.
25. Neverland: Peter Pan. which makes me think of players. And Wendy's.... and hamburgers.
26. Dixie: laaaaaaaand.
27. Vanilla ice cream: is the best, cause you can do stuff to it.
28. Hooters: owls?
29. High school: only exists to support stereotyping.
30. Pajamas: I'm wearing theeeeem.
31. Wood: uhm. Kilik. I don't even know, man.
32. Wet Sock: ick.
33. I like you: lol. uh. thanks?
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Survey, because somehow myspace did this crazy thing with the coding and added seven million commas in the questions that were not there initially. And that totally cracked me up.
1.
How,,,, lat,,,,e did,,,, you,,,, sta,,,,y up las,,,,t nig,,,,ht,, and,,,, why,,,,?
Two thirty ish. I actually started trying to sleep around one fourty-five, but I kept thinking about lame things, so it took a while to actually fall asleep. And it was only that early because I had a couple of tests this morning.
2.
Wha,,t was,, the,, fir,,st thi,,ng you,, tho,,ugh,,t whe,,n you,, got,, up?,,
Crap.
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Who,, wer,,e you,, wit,,h sat,,urd,,ay nig,,ht?,,
Saturday.... I don't even remember Saturday. Honestly.
4.
Do you,, thi,,nk you,, wil,,l be in a rel,,ati,,ons,,hip,, 3 mon,,ths,, fro,,m now,,?
Three months.... June... probably not. I'll be working.
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Whe,,ns the,, nex,,t tim,,e you,,'ll,, see,, you,,r bes,,t fri,,end,,s?
Saturday!!
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Wha,,t wer,,e you,, doi,,ng thi,,s mor,,nin,,g at 7am,,?
Sleeping.
7.
Wha,,t rad,,io sta,,tio,,n do you,, lis,,ten,, to the,, mos,,t?
I boycott the radio. They play stupid music. And then they cut the good music so that it's as stupid as the stupid music. But if I do listen to the radio, it's usually like.... the indie station on yahoo.
8.
Wha,,t was,, the,, rea,,son,, you,, las,,t cri,,ed?,,
Uhm... it's been a bit, again. Probably a combination of intense stress and relationship issues. Yeah.
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Hav,,e you,, eve,,r tal,,ked,, to som,,eon | | | |
